Pain

I've got a migraine...I shouldn't be staring at the screen, let alone writing, but for some reason I feel like if I don't my head will burst.
What the hell am I doing?
Who am I turning into?
I look at myself and I don't see me anymore, I see a distorted, disturbed, ruined version of myself, even though I do know I am doing things the way I am supposed to.
My days are totally blank and meaningless.
So are my thoughts.
Everything is related to working, money, what I want to do, plans, ideas...
My ability to randomly catch drifts is absolutely messed up.
It's messing me up.
I need to stop drifting.

Maybe levitate for a change...

Love, forever,

Lady Mynna, Gaia, me myself, and everybody else in my head...