Well hallo, my fellow websurfers!
It is my 4th day home in a row, and I am going berserk.
Nobody seems to give a shit about one when one's ill.
I got one phone call, from grandma...and one offer of coming over to cook for me, from one of my boyfriend's friends... completely unnecesary since my lungs are what don't work, therefore I can cook perfectly fine by myself. (Nice of him though).
My boyfriend remembered I exist say...once in these days...and only half-replies messages an hour later.
Was supposed to come today, instead, it is 1:10 in the morning and he's calling from a friend's bar saying "he'll finish his whiskey and come over"....MURDER. Our friend on the other hand is playing "The diplomat", and trying to convince me not to kill him, because he stayed with him as "moral support" and he delivered a mead order at the bar "so don't be angry"...
MURDER
When I tell him he was supposed to come during the day and instead will come now, and my anger is not related to the last hour, he says "those are couple problems, I will not meddle anymore". GOOD
Now, honey, I hope you don't think you can ring the doorbell at this time of night, even if your cell is not working, I would assume you had a plan BEFORE being SO FUCKING LATE.
Love LMH
Sunday, June 09, 2013
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
26 CANDLE LIFE MANUAL....or something
Well, so...I always start writing with the "it's been quite a long time since I last posted" and stuff like that, but this time I'm gonna get over that cliche and just get over with it.
I haven't written in a while because I had nothing to share. Or maybe to say. Perhaps it is even that Facebook has taken over my life in various aspects, and I can't seem to make myself write something longer than a status update or creepy quote.
I am not sure how I got off the route labeled "quest to happiness", but for some reason, I have found that I don't need to search for happiness at all. I am content. I have found a way of coping with everyday bullshit (other people's and my own) that works pretty well, I guess.
I used to spend an enormous amount of time trying to figure out why people were the way they were, why someone would act a certain way, why things were said, alltogether, a fucked up and unnecessary analysis of "insert everything here" around. I spent countless hours, days, months, analyzing behaviors, behavioral patterns, responses, reactions, EVERYTHING. It was exhausting.
I figured that as long as my plan of finding happiness was on trial mode, I could attempt to analyze and deconstruct every single aspect of humanity that was possible, pretending, with this, to achieve this so called "happiness", by avoiding anything (of the previously analyzed shit) that would get me out of my schemes.
So here's what I've come up with, now that I can say I am content, and that's a lot, trust me:
THE 26 RULES FOR THIS PARTICULAR INDIVIDUAL'S LIFE - ONE FOR EACH LIVED YEAR:
1. Write a lot, even in your head, it's not creepy as long as you don't show it. (to people, blogs don't count)
2. I got this from Burton's Alice in Wonderland (and I loved it) "Think of at least 3 impossible things before breakfast".
3. Embrace every idea you have, no matter how far-fetched or wrong it may seem, embracing ideas is a way of embracing yourself, YOU are the one having them, aren't you?
4. Avoid putting too much energy in meaningless conversations, discussions, arguments, etc. it's draining. Unless you enjoy word battles, in which case, yippie, have a blast!
5. Make sure to get a new goal EVERY DAY, it can be as simple as doing your nails, or as complex as building your own Inn in the next 10 to 15 years.
6. Eat healthy, eat delicious. There is nothing wrong with indulging one's palate in gourmet cuisine, as long as it's not endangering your well-being.
7. Be pro-active. In work, in your relationships and in life in general. Being pro-active, gets your mind an energy boost you will not experience in any other way.
8. Say no, get pissed off, tell people to fuck off, it's OK. You can live your life either by letting everything "happen", and letting people do as they please regardless of how that makes you feel, or you can be honest. Trust me, HONESTY is very much appreciated by the right kind of people.
9. Don't try and remember dates or "social bullshit". You have nothing to prove (and your real friends know you wouldn't forget their birthdays on purpose). "So I checked the internet today, and it said it was your birthday last month, so...I hope you had an awesome time, sorry for the lag, love, me."
10. Meet new people. The further away they live, the better, it will make you make an effort to see them, that is, if you really like them. If you don't, you can always say you live too far away and that's that. No, just kidding, just meet people, and keep the ones you like. You have no obligation whatsoever to keep them all. You're not hoarding people like pokemons, are you?
11. Don't disguise your mood. If you are pissed, fucked up, tired, or whatever, enjoy it!! It's one of the things that makes you different from a pineapple or a piece of bark.
12. Losing people is not all that bad. How is this? The right people you've met throughout your (probably short) life, will not go away just because you disagreed, or they got angry, or you forgot to call. In fact, those who do - and I know a couple - were never worth your thoughts in the first place.
13. What comes around, goes around. Karma is a bitch, and so are you if you don't stop bitching about karma being such a skank. Things happen for a reason. It could be that you fucked up bigtime and deserve it, but it is most likely either a combination of causes leading to a string of consequences or a mere fluke.
14. Dreams are forever. You may not always dream the same thing, but every dream you have is usually linked to the others, or an evolution of an original dream.
15. Don't judge, don't trust - too fast. Things like judgement and trust, should be built in time. There is no such thing as "fast friends" or "lightning relationships", you have to work for it, earn respect, trust, love, and give it back if willing. If not, use rule 8 and be honest about the way you feel. Which takes me to rule 16.
16. DON'T BE AN ASSHOLE. No matter how hard life has smacked you in the face with a fire extinguisher, there is NO REASON, whatsoever, to take it out on other people. Your day sucked? suck it up, MAKE it better. It is actually up to you to make your days better or worse. Stop blaming others.
17. Make your fate. Decide each minute, hour or day, how you want to feel that day. From what you wear, to how you approach people, and how you work. If you're sad, or blue, take a mellow day, that doesn't mean taking a day off work, it simply means taking it down a notch.
18. Fight your own battles (let others fight theirs). Always being there for other people, not only makes you an annoying busybody, but also it turns them into banal bastards. I wouldn't wish that even to the worse I've met.
19. There are no excuses for acting like a fucktard, and you must show people there are consequences to their actions. If someone wrongs you, shove it in their faces, they DESERVE it. Otherwise they will think they can go around screwing everyone up and not get a high five with a chair on the face. (thank you 9gag)
20. Enthrall in meaningful conversations and enjoy healthy situations. Friends always have something interesting to talk to you about, I am sure you have a lot of them who you haven't seen in a while, and are probably full of cool info and updates! Plus, once the new data is gone, you can always go over well brewed subjects, such as religion, politics, law, and what-nots. (not recommended for new friends)
21. Add color to your life. Spice it up a little!! Throw dinner parties mid-week, treat a friend to sushi, take dance lessons (your legs won't be good forever), go swimming, enjoy a weekend in the country, moonbathe in your terrace or watch independent films every now and then. Buy a record, window shop at bookstores. Your choice!!
22. Admit to yourself that you're getting older, and embrace the fact that sooner or later you will die, and you've known it from the moment someone yelled "kid!! get down from there or you'll crack your neck and die!". Dying is not cool, it just happens to happen. Deal with it.
23. The phrase "all of my friends are having kids, and buying cars and shit like that" SUCKS. Use the same philosophy your mom used to give you when "everyone was doing it": "IF EVERYONE JUMPS OFF A BRIDGE, WOULD YOU DO TOO?" (depends on how much fun it is, mom!) Nobody can tell you when it is YOUR time to grow up, become socially acceptable - if ever- or bring a child to this world. Your time will come, or it won't. Relax, noone I know is entirely happy with having or not having those things.
24. Indulge yourself with "YOU" time. You need this time. Not necessarily to DO anything in particular, simply to shut down from the ever-so-invasive world, and enjoy the fact that you can breathe.
25. Take trips. If you can't afford the real deal, take them in your head, they're not as cool, but definitely better since they are free!! Pretend you are from somewhere else, walk down the streets in your neighborhood in child-like amusement. Get some ice-cream. Laugh.
26. Remember life is not a road, it doesn't take you anywhere, this is what there is, and you don't have to get "through" it, yo have to live it, love it, and enjoy it! Live each day as if there were no tomorrow, or cliches for every day of the year. :D
Which there are.
So here I leave you, with a belated summary of my "26 candle embracing life manual" which I hope you enjoy, if you do, please comment, there's nothing worse than not sharing your thoughts or giving someone a boost if you liked it.
Criticism not welcome, unless it is thoughtful and constructive, keep it to yourself, there's too much shit in the world for me to find it on my blog.
Love
LM
I haven't written in a while because I had nothing to share. Or maybe to say. Perhaps it is even that Facebook has taken over my life in various aspects, and I can't seem to make myself write something longer than a status update or creepy quote.
I am not sure how I got off the route labeled "quest to happiness", but for some reason, I have found that I don't need to search for happiness at all. I am content. I have found a way of coping with everyday bullshit (other people's and my own) that works pretty well, I guess.
I used to spend an enormous amount of time trying to figure out why people were the way they were, why someone would act a certain way, why things were said, alltogether, a fucked up and unnecessary analysis of "insert everything here" around. I spent countless hours, days, months, analyzing behaviors, behavioral patterns, responses, reactions, EVERYTHING. It was exhausting.
I figured that as long as my plan of finding happiness was on trial mode, I could attempt to analyze and deconstruct every single aspect of humanity that was possible, pretending, with this, to achieve this so called "happiness", by avoiding anything (of the previously analyzed shit) that would get me out of my schemes.
So here's what I've come up with, now that I can say I am content, and that's a lot, trust me:
THE 26 RULES FOR THIS PARTICULAR INDIVIDUAL'S LIFE - ONE FOR EACH LIVED YEAR:
1. Write a lot, even in your head, it's not creepy as long as you don't show it. (to people, blogs don't count)
2. I got this from Burton's Alice in Wonderland (and I loved it) "Think of at least 3 impossible things before breakfast".
3. Embrace every idea you have, no matter how far-fetched or wrong it may seem, embracing ideas is a way of embracing yourself, YOU are the one having them, aren't you?
4. Avoid putting too much energy in meaningless conversations, discussions, arguments, etc. it's draining. Unless you enjoy word battles, in which case, yippie, have a blast!
5. Make sure to get a new goal EVERY DAY, it can be as simple as doing your nails, or as complex as building your own Inn in the next 10 to 15 years.
6. Eat healthy, eat delicious. There is nothing wrong with indulging one's palate in gourmet cuisine, as long as it's not endangering your well-being.
7. Be pro-active. In work, in your relationships and in life in general. Being pro-active, gets your mind an energy boost you will not experience in any other way.
8. Say no, get pissed off, tell people to fuck off, it's OK. You can live your life either by letting everything "happen", and letting people do as they please regardless of how that makes you feel, or you can be honest. Trust me, HONESTY is very much appreciated by the right kind of people.
9. Don't try and remember dates or "social bullshit". You have nothing to prove (and your real friends know you wouldn't forget their birthdays on purpose). "So I checked the internet today, and it said it was your birthday last month, so...I hope you had an awesome time, sorry for the lag, love, me."
10. Meet new people. The further away they live, the better, it will make you make an effort to see them, that is, if you really like them. If you don't, you can always say you live too far away and that's that. No, just kidding, just meet people, and keep the ones you like. You have no obligation whatsoever to keep them all. You're not hoarding people like pokemons, are you?
11. Don't disguise your mood. If you are pissed, fucked up, tired, or whatever, enjoy it!! It's one of the things that makes you different from a pineapple or a piece of bark.
12. Losing people is not all that bad. How is this? The right people you've met throughout your (probably short) life, will not go away just because you disagreed, or they got angry, or you forgot to call. In fact, those who do - and I know a couple - were never worth your thoughts in the first place.
13. What comes around, goes around. Karma is a bitch, and so are you if you don't stop bitching about karma being such a skank. Things happen for a reason. It could be that you fucked up bigtime and deserve it, but it is most likely either a combination of causes leading to a string of consequences or a mere fluke.
14. Dreams are forever. You may not always dream the same thing, but every dream you have is usually linked to the others, or an evolution of an original dream.
15. Don't judge, don't trust - too fast. Things like judgement and trust, should be built in time. There is no such thing as "fast friends" or "lightning relationships", you have to work for it, earn respect, trust, love, and give it back if willing. If not, use rule 8 and be honest about the way you feel. Which takes me to rule 16.
16. DON'T BE AN ASSHOLE. No matter how hard life has smacked you in the face with a fire extinguisher, there is NO REASON, whatsoever, to take it out on other people. Your day sucked? suck it up, MAKE it better. It is actually up to you to make your days better or worse. Stop blaming others.
17. Make your fate. Decide each minute, hour or day, how you want to feel that day. From what you wear, to how you approach people, and how you work. If you're sad, or blue, take a mellow day, that doesn't mean taking a day off work, it simply means taking it down a notch.
18. Fight your own battles (let others fight theirs). Always being there for other people, not only makes you an annoying busybody, but also it turns them into banal bastards. I wouldn't wish that even to the worse I've met.
19. There are no excuses for acting like a fucktard, and you must show people there are consequences to their actions. If someone wrongs you, shove it in their faces, they DESERVE it. Otherwise they will think they can go around screwing everyone up and not get a high five with a chair on the face. (thank you 9gag)
20. Enthrall in meaningful conversations and enjoy healthy situations. Friends always have something interesting to talk to you about, I am sure you have a lot of them who you haven't seen in a while, and are probably full of cool info and updates! Plus, once the new data is gone, you can always go over well brewed subjects, such as religion, politics, law, and what-nots. (not recommended for new friends)
21. Add color to your life. Spice it up a little!! Throw dinner parties mid-week, treat a friend to sushi, take dance lessons (your legs won't be good forever), go swimming, enjoy a weekend in the country, moonbathe in your terrace or watch independent films every now and then. Buy a record, window shop at bookstores. Your choice!!
22. Admit to yourself that you're getting older, and embrace the fact that sooner or later you will die, and you've known it from the moment someone yelled "kid!! get down from there or you'll crack your neck and die!". Dying is not cool, it just happens to happen. Deal with it.
23. The phrase "all of my friends are having kids, and buying cars and shit like that" SUCKS. Use the same philosophy your mom used to give you when "everyone was doing it": "IF EVERYONE JUMPS OFF A BRIDGE, WOULD YOU DO TOO?" (depends on how much fun it is, mom!) Nobody can tell you when it is YOUR time to grow up, become socially acceptable - if ever- or bring a child to this world. Your time will come, or it won't. Relax, noone I know is entirely happy with having or not having those things.
24. Indulge yourself with "YOU" time. You need this time. Not necessarily to DO anything in particular, simply to shut down from the ever-so-invasive world, and enjoy the fact that you can breathe.
25. Take trips. If you can't afford the real deal, take them in your head, they're not as cool, but definitely better since they are free!! Pretend you are from somewhere else, walk down the streets in your neighborhood in child-like amusement. Get some ice-cream. Laugh.
26. Remember life is not a road, it doesn't take you anywhere, this is what there is, and you don't have to get "through" it, yo have to live it, love it, and enjoy it! Live each day as if there were no tomorrow, or cliches for every day of the year. :D
Which there are.
So here I leave you, with a belated summary of my "26 candle embracing life manual" which I hope you enjoy, if you do, please comment, there's nothing worse than not sharing your thoughts or giving someone a boost if you liked it.
Criticism not welcome, unless it is thoughtful and constructive, keep it to yourself, there's too much shit in the world for me to find it on my blog.
Love
LM
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